"Your Ad Box May be Delisted"!?  

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Pretty much all of my friends locally, that is, know what's going on with me so I haven't worried too much about things like this. While I'm trying to get back on my feet I've received many notices such as Project Wonderful's robot warning.
I hate being sick - but this time it's been worse on my psyche more than my body. While I'm in constant pain, I manage, kind of. But the fact that it's affecting my behavior so much is disabling. I can't write anyone back, follow through on anything, I've totally left the dishes to everyone else. I reached out a couple of weeks ago to tell my friends from my book project that I was sick but hoping to get back to 'normal' soon and continue on with the book, but I've been unable to answer any of their emails :( I'm very frustrated and depressed, but still I remain optimistic.
Since I had an attack of sciatica in January, which still continues with my left foot slowly going numb from my arch up my leg, I've been on several answer-seeking journeys to the doctors. Finally last month I was told I have MS. Now, like I've said, I'm not sure right now what that means for me, I have a doctor appointment the 30th of June and hopefully will get better answers. In the meantime, here I remain.
My second oldest son is graduating from HS this morning and I'm not ready - totally depressed(feels like an elephant's on my chest), and don't want to endure the pain of having to take a shower.... sigh
It will get better, I'm sure it will. But I haven't written in so long - think about it often - but just haven't been able to. Getting this second notice from Project Wonderful prompted me I guess into finally writing and letting everyone know what's going on.
To all of the faithful followers and supporters of this blog, I treasure you and hope that you'll stick it out with me - I know it's gotta get better! But I will do my best to get to the writing as I'm able.
You're very important to me - we may be strangers for the most part, but gosh you've been through so much with me! and I consider you all friends.
I will be back soon - thanks for being there :)
Freida

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5 comments: to “ "Your Ad Box May be Delisted"!?

  • Tammy's Treasure Chest
    May 31, 2009 at 1:09 PM  

    I'm so sorry to hear you've been sick! I think about you a lot and wonder what's going on. :)
    My SIL has MS and is now on disability, but it's not as bad a diagnosis as it used to be. They have some pretty good meds for it now.
    Just sit back and let everybody take care of you. You deserve it!
    My youngest graduated HS on the 15th of this month and it sent me into a tailspin! I didn't realize how depressing it would be.
    You're in my prayers and on my mind. Be well.

  • Pamela, Kira and Scampi
    June 1, 2009 at 7:02 AM  

    Nice to have you back among your friends! We are here for you and if you ever need to talk, rant, or blow off steam, that is what we are for.
    I hope you see better days ahead!
    -Pamela

    P.S.- Thanks for the update on the ornament, I a glad that they liked it!

  • Deer Mountain Creations
    June 1, 2009 at 8:49 AM  

    Thank you so much Tammy! I miss you and did want to let you know that you should expect a package soon =D At least I'm still able to get a few things out and working on getting back to the world of the living!lol
    I've thought about you alot too and am glad you're doing okay :)
    Graduation was soooo good, and I'm so glad he made it! I will have to write about that one!lol But he's off to Russia on Wednesday and I'm in such a whirlwind with trying to get him ready that I haven't had time to really think about what that means to me... sigh - they grow so quick!
    This is turning into a letter! lol
    Anyway, wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and you'll be hearing from me very soon =D Thank you for being there!
    love & {{{hugs}}}F

  • Deer Mountain Creations
    June 1, 2009 at 8:56 AM  

    Oh, Pamela! They really LOVED it and I can't thank you enough!! But mostly for always being so supportive! :) I wish I had the talent you have in just your pinky!!!
    I know we all have "bad patches", as my late husband used to say, and I'm so glad to know that you are there for me - I'm sure there will be a lot of all the above before I'm done with this new journey and having the support of one's friends is a corner stone to staying sane!! =D Thank you for all you've already done!
    love & {{{hugs}}}F

  • Deer Mountain Creations
    June 1, 2009 at 8:57 AM  

    .ps
    Tammy, I don't know about your babies, but I don't know if I'm going to feel the pain of their growing - apparently they don't have any intentions of leaving the nest anytime soon!!! LOL
    ugh!lol

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